Breath

Alone, fuxk I don't do alone well, he left me alone... I don't know how to do this... I have been apart of something for so long. How do I live life by myself? How?

Do I find a job... Just to lose it for not being good enough.. It seems like that is all I am good at... Not being good enough. Everything I touch is just a complete fail.

I wish I was strong, I wish I could just wake up and get dressed and be awesome.

I want things out of life, I want to be exactly what someone has been wanting... Waiting for... Needing.

Wanna be that girl.. The one you can't live without. I couldn't be that girl to him. But I wanna be that girl for someone.

I wanna be amazing for my kids, I want them to be proud of me.

I wanna make my momma proud.. When I married Jason she was proud.. I don't know what she thinks now.

In guess I should figure out something to be.

I'll let you know when I figure it out