Awesome!!!! Suck an elf!!!!!

I have officially giving up, seriously, well it looks like I'm never ever gonna be good enough. I at least I got my kids to bed before 10. But man! I am never gonna be anyone's dream girl.

So much has changes sense I was date able. And it's unfair. 6 years ago I was beautiful, I was exciting, I was the life of the party. Not so much now. Now I am nobody's life, I shouldn't have more kids, I guess I am nothing be my beautiful boys mother.

Right now I feel like They would be better off without me in their life. I am struggling with my own demons, and I am afraid that they are winning. in never gonna be 25 again. I can't get that back. I am never gonna be amazing in bed. I am gonna be average. Nothing special not to anyone anyone. There are a few men that I always thought I would be good enough for. But they live in a different state, live a different life. And let's face a broken woman with two little boys are not what a single never married man wants.


Anyway goodnight